I'm Your Man by Timothy James Beck

Author:Timothy James Beck [Beck, Timothy J.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Kensington
Published: 2014-12-24T05:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER 11

Before I surfaced to consciousness, Daniel became part of my dreams. I could almost feel his warm, smooth flesh against mine, and the way his body hair tickled my skin when he stirred from our spooning position. It was so easy to fall back into memories of our years together and think of the many times and ways we woke up and made love.

It had never gotten old for me. Never felt predictable. There were things I’d done with him that I knew I would never do with another man. If anyone gave a thought to our relationship, considering our appearances and the differences in how we worked and maintained our bodies, they’d probably never believe the pleasure I took in being fucked by Daniel. Not just because of the physical satisfaction he could give me. He helped me understand what he already knew: the emotional strength it took to be vulnerable and trusting enough to allow myself to be taken that way. I couldn’t imagine letting that happen with any other man. Only Daniel could have that part of me . . .

I wanted him so much that I could almost smell him. No matter what shampoo, soap, or other scents he used, they could never compete with the tantalizing natural odors of his skin and hair. He’d always laughed at the way I sniffed him, and been mad that I could tell when he’d sneaked one of his occasional cigarettes. But I couldn’t help myself. When he was near me, I had to breathe in the smell that went to my head like liquor.

I moaned, finally awake enough for dismay about my behavior at Josh’s bachelor party to seep into my thoughts. I knew better than to drink too much. Whenever I did, I made an ass of myself. In fact, I’d nearly derailed any hope of a romance with Daniel because of my drunken, boorish behavior the first time we’d ever been alone with each other. In the three years we’d been together, there were maybe five occasions when I’d had too much to drink, and Daniel always knew exactly when to swoop in and save me from myself, taking me home and putting me to bed before I could commit any grave social errors.

That woke me up. Had I really thrown myself at Adam Wilson? I had the dimmest memory of the way he’d returned my kiss—was he nuts?—before he broke it off with a laugh.

Time to get you to bed, big guy . . .

Shit. In front of all our friends. In front of Jeremy. In front of Daniel. Not only was I the second biggest asshole on the planet—Martin being the first—but I had to stand in front of hundreds of people later, trying not to look hungover, miserable, and guilty. At least Sheila hadn’t been there and wouldn’t know what a jerk I’d been. For her sake, I was sure all of us would pretend everything was okay. But it was a long way from okay.

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